Wasted Time

(for Kaye, after all the bottles were emptied - one drink to remember and the other one to forget)

I really don't think you wasted years of your life, because you spent it with someone you truly loved. I believe that no matter how ugly a relationship turns out to be in the end, there was still a time when it was beautiful, a time when it made us happy. And that should be the measure we use, not the bitterness that we feel inside.

You have allowed anger and hatred to rule your heart. These emotions are toxic and can make your life miserable. Kaye one of the greatest acts of love is the act of forgiveness. It is also one of the most difficult things to do. Keeping ill feeling towards another person is like lighting a fire that eventually grows and consumes us.

Our life should be led by love and compassion and not by the desire to seek vengeance for other people's wrongdoings. He made you curse him but there was once a time when he made you very happy. Look back not at the things that make you feel bad, but at the things that show just how blessed you are.

Kaye, the first step to a new beginning is forgiveness. Cry for a while and then forget about how bad you felt. Accept that you didn't have forever, but you had 12 wonderful years of love. Grieve for a while, but do not regret that you have loved him because it was one of the most beautiful things that happened to your life. Put down the heavy bag of negative emotions that you carry right now, and move on with a new life. Remember that love never gives a guarantee of permanence. But it always gives hope. Love doesn't promise forever, but it gives us faith to believe. Love makes us cry, but the tears that it brings can breathe a new life, a new beginning, and a new hope to those who believe and those who find the courage to move on and love again.