Endings And New Beginnings

We all get at least one good wish a year. Over the candles on our birthday, some of us throw in more. On eyelashes, fountains, lucky stars, and every now and then, one of those wishes comes true. So what then? Is it is as good as we'd hoped? Do we bask in the warm glow of our happiness? Or, do we just notice we've got a long list of other wishes waiting to be wished?

What we are going to do with that long list of other wishes? Are we still hoping that all of those will come true? Or perhaps we just have to accept our fate and go with it.

Tomorrow will be an ending and new beginning for me. I started last year with anxiety but full of hope towards the days to come. The uncertainty I faced as I continue my journey, or the way that I described it as “my flight.” As I look back now, it was a mixture of good and not so good memories, of stories of letting go and moving on, jof joy and pain, of triumphs and failures, and loving and being hurt. These are the things I am thankful for. Those things made me who I am now.

Once you reach a certain age, there should be only one phrase left in your vocabulary: Thank-you! With every birthday, gratitude should deepen until it colors every aspect life. But like what I have said last year, “I love living and I hope still to live for a long time, but if I died today it would be okay. I'd be okay - because I'm loved. I know people who love me, and that's enough."

Thank you for all the people, those who have shown love to me, and being an expression of God's love. As I start another year in my life, I carry with me memories and lessons learned. I know I need more and more to trust love and surrender, to let go of myself, especially of my pride, my wounds, my hurts, my mistakes, my past, and my weaknesses, to give myself over to forgiveness. At a certain age, it should come down to one word: "Thanks!"